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Thursday, April 28, 2005

cest la vie

yesterday, i was scheduled for testing and interview for smart telecom, but after twenty minutes of interview, they just sent me home (note : without the exam) T_T let's see the seismic moments that led to yesterday:

3 birds with one stone well, to begin with, maybe i should've heeded the bad omen. before i left home, i ran into a messenger from globe, i immidiately thought that it was my sister's phone bill. but after i recieved it, i notice that it was addressed to me. i hurriedly opened it (2 hours before smart interview). lo and behold, i was rejected. but this wasn't actually much of a surprise since i really screwed that exam as well.

flashback:
during that globe exam, i was surprised that my name wasn't on the list of exam takers, since i was called to attend ^^; but actually i didn't mind. but i didn't realize that there were 2 sets of exams that were given, and we were timed differently. the exam wasn't difficult, however, i was screwed when i heard the examiner say that we should proceed tot he next exam. big deal i thought, it's prolly time pressured. however i after a while, she comes up front and tells us that we should proceed to the next exam. she sees me halfway throught he next exam T_T ouch

so, continuing on yesterday's day, i commuted to makati, and i started to search for the smart tower. (time check: 45 mins til 2) under the midday sun. so i wear my hat (so my hair wont stink from the heat) and proceed to walk, often staring up to see whether i'm anywhere near my destination. before going down one underpass, i see my destination. but somehow i screwed up. apparently, i walked around the building, instead of going straight. i entered from the backdoor of the building, and i totally forgot to fix myself. so once i reach the 18th floor, i went looking for the cr. and i find myself lost in front of the girls cr ^^; good thing someone told me where to go XD my hair was standing up like i just woke up, and i can't make it fall. when my name was called, i went to the interviewer, and i was determined to make a good impression. but then she asked me whether i have a resume, and i seemed to have forgotten mine, so she just gave me an app form. but while i was answering, i realize i did bring one. so i submit it to her, and she looks at me and says, "i thought you said you didn't bring any?" ~_~; now, i didn't bring a photocopy of my transcript. so had to use their photocopierT_T in the middle of the interview, i suddenly burped. but not because i was full, but because i haven't had breakfast nor lunch T_T my stomach was filled with nothing but air. i really looked like a bum. and finally, she focused on my failure subject T_T i'm so screwed. so she told me to wait for my call in 2 weeksm, and i knew i'm screwed.

to top it off, when i came home, i stumbled on my email, with a "sorry, many people are applying for your position, so we're looking into them first" mail form hp T__T

however, there was a redeeming factor. i asked gerry bully to a megamall tripping trip after work. when he agreed, i came back (i was halfway home) and bought a cd cleaner on the way. (the cd cleaner was funny, no english instructions) that hit the spot ^^ and shelly belly's email also made my day XD it's nice she's gaining some self esteem, she's beginning to understand that she's special :P


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Monday, April 25, 2005

like, forever~!

we created a video postcard for jacey, to be sent through kaila :D
also made some stuff to keep kai company on her vacation (extended or otherwise) in the united states of whatever :D

prolly i'm surprised shelly allowed me to be the camera man :D we filmed a guided tour of the admu, i dropped some hints to make her think the wrong stuff ;) etc i like these moments, when i get to share my time with friends (i think i have a lot of them, and i'm happy). i hope this will be worth it when the day comes . . .

and it becomes routine a friend's getting the job jitters. she ain't the competitive type, so she's having some troubles with the corporate world. quite frankly, i ain't that into corporate competition as well, inasmuch as i enjoy some friendly rivalry >.< i haven't really had the expreience so i can't really think of ways to make her see that there's a brighter side; coz frankly i have no idea what it is (i feel like a math major. i just know that it exists :P)

oops gtg for a moment. i'll continue this later hopefully ^^


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Monday, April 18, 2005

ice-capades

well, it pushed through, and i'm so glad it did. it was fun treating my friend out for once :D and hopefully i did good, coz it was another day of cool discussion :D

griever w00t! i haven't felt that good for quite a while ^^ i bought me 2 naruto pins, we bought kaila a farewell/get back soon/whatever's the case gift, we skated (onishin was funny, but heck, it was fun), i bought 100 cd-r's, onishin hit a kid in the face, i tripped a running kid, well basically, it was fun. but i guess you already knew that

dota losing streak need i say more? T_T


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Friday, April 15, 2005

PBT

update : we just finished the freelance project for our client (wow, i can't believe i just said that).

payback is sweet~! especially if it's monetary, and you're recieving it ^^
for those who want to keep track, (basically that's me) here's a recap:

client : dependable printing and packaging company
software : payroll and employee record software
language : vb (the one that comes with excel)
total time to develop : ~3days x 3ppl, 9 man days :D
what i've learned : more vb, macros, excel (our database was in excel), and most importantly, how taxes compute

aside : man, i couldn't believe how much i would have to pay for the government tax, if i decide to accept the azeus job (~30% a month T_T) that's about 5000! 5 frickin thousand!!!

anywho, that best thing that happened today was that i got paid~! this is the first amount of money that i actualy earned for myself~! i'm so~ proud~! ^^v

however . . .

angels and demons today's not all good, once i stopped to think about it. i'm all excited and everything coz i'll finally be able to treat my friends tom, after all the times they've treated me out . . . but one of them may not be able to go tom because of personal problems. yeah, i'm bummed about it, and i'll try to persuade her to change her mind later. after all, ohana means family; family means nobody gets left behind, or forgotten . . .


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Thursday, April 14, 2005

work, work

woohoo!! we made major progress today with freelance work :D go us!
anywho, a side effect is that i haven't been in control of nirvana (my pc) for the entire time . . . for most part, ryouga and marilawin were using her (yes, nirvana is a girl)

regcom first of all, i would like to extend a big "GOOD LUCK!" to regcom05. i helped out yesterday, and well, it was a really stressful day T_T additionally, i wasn't able to go to the banquet and elections T_T i miss regcom . . .

tamiya well, me and a couple of friends were talking about some stuff that i can't talk about yet in fears that a certain someone will read this *hint hint* anywho, it came into my mind that hell, this is the period i dreaded last year, and it's happening again. i really hate the feeling when everyone and everything to you seems to drift away,and no matter how much you feel you're trying to hold on, you know there's a pretty wide margin of them disappearing entirely. it really makes my stomach churn when i think about it . . . but of course, other than this blog, i try to deny all traces of it (as usual)


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Monday, April 11, 2005

w00t!

been quite a good day. at least i'm no longer gonna be as bored as hell . . .

freelancer well, seems i'm gonna be having less time to actually complete this site. but i'll get right back to it. but now, as a way of getting some practice, am going for some freelance work. i'm hoping this'll be easy, but form experience, nothing is as easy as it looks . . .

darn, a lot of people are talking to me in y!m (and i think one is angry at me) i'll continue this later. meanwhile treat yourselves with my past 2 posts ^^ one is quite light, the other is quite angsty . . .


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Sunday, April 10, 2005

the foolish and the weak

i'm not trying to sound like some angst-filled teenager, but there are just times that rebellion starts to sound sweet. now don't get me wrong, i love my folks, they're family, after all. but sometimes, they can be such lame excuses for kindred.

i don't think so i can't believe my folks would actually say such a thing, but they did. and how dare they! i was talking to them about job opportunities one day, when i told them about a friend of mine who works for 10K a month, but doing the job she likes. i told them about how i admire that kind of diligence and discipline to labor for love. but you'll never guess what they said. they actually went out and said that she was stupid for even accepting such a job when there are a lot of higher paying jobs out there. i was dumbfounded and disappointed at my parents at how they acted. this is the part where everything seemed a blur because, hell, i was furious. i tried to keep my cool and explained that you can't put a price on doing what you want, and they gave some explanation about how poor the philippines is, and how hopeless our society is because of the government, etc. they make some valid points, but hell, i don't think that justifies calling my friends stupid.

it's hard to say this without sounding discriminating, but what i really dislike about my parents is taht they're stuck with the poor philosophy. inasmuch as they are hardworking folks, and no matter how much they deny it, they always look for blame on other people, especially the government. now it's no secret that our government is corrupt like hell, but i don't believe that it's reason to blame the government for everything bad that happens to the philippines. i disapprove of their notion that all government officials are out to destroy the filipinos way of life. what really pisses me off is that the only government officials that they consider good are those that have actually done them favors, or those they have seen in real life. i mean, talk about double standards. i really hate it when they expect us to be treated with some sort of handicap because we're poor. for example, how they expect my friends to drive me home, i mean wtf? they can't even wait for me for more than 5 mins when they're fetching me from school.

grr . . . i hate it when i suddenly lose my trail of thought. stupid memory


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Saturday, April 09, 2005

n00b layout

a lot has happened since the last time i checked up. but as always, my crap-ass life in this crap-ass world goes on, with or without my crap-ass consent.

of course i'm paraphrasing

smelloscope probably the first thing you should've noticed is that i've changed the layout. now it's a crap-ass simple layout. (i'm starting to see a pattern here) still not fully working, though none of the (yep you guessed it) crap-ass links above are working. yet

job hunt i've got me a job, but in light with keeping my options open, i'm pushing the envelope until the deadliest deadline, which is about may 15. until then, i'm really hoping to get into hp. really.

red hot destiny i'm not sure if anyone notices but i try to put some mild puns on my entries, especially on the titles and subtitles (yeah, this shouldn't come as a surprise to those who know me)(oh, and a prize awaits who can understand what i meant from this subtitle^^). anywho, i've been feeling sorta mixed lately. come to think of it, mised feelings are an undertatement. i'm plain osterized. my body is acting up (narcolepsy/lack of discipline kicking in), and i'm just becoming plain moody. some things just really bother me about myself. am i that talkative? i mean, i'd like to think i'm a secret's best friend, at least when i know it's a secret. but then again, i guess it's other people's prerogative to trust me. maybe i'm just getting brattier by the minute, but i really hate it when others treat me like a baby, but then again, maybe i should act more my age. more stuff i started to hate about myself (come to think of it i project this to others) is my tencendy to daydream, and actually do what i've been dreaming. i guess this explains the "feeling cool" effect that others notice. in this light, i turn paranoid when i feel people don't trust mw with stuff. starting with my family, to my friends, to even some stranger, i hate the feeling of distrust, especially towards me (i'm thinking everyone feels this too, but at different levels. i mean, strangers?). in this light, i feel that i'm in a loss. that doesn't mean i'll show it though. i really won't. but the hell, i really feel like i have no idea where i am right now. is this quarter life crisis? i don't think so, since i'm not worried about trying everything out, but i am feeling lost. sometimes too sensitive, sometimes totally not. oh well, what the f.


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