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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

my poor tushie T_T

went biking at quezon memorial circle yesterday. actually it was originally for a project ^^ but with me, kai, and bel (who said she was deprived of childhood biking experince) it easily turned into a bonding trip :P

hoy~ pinoy ako! roughly translated : "hey~ i'm a filipino!"
like i said previously, i have gained quite an amount of open mindedness from my family, but still some things i can't understand (though i accept). one of these is the chinese thing about marrying other (and only) chinese people. now i have nothing against that, and i know i'm speaking from a blind point of view (coming from a filipino family). a possible reason i see is that since it is really hard to find a family that descends purely from chinese blood, or any blood for that matter, and maybe that's what they're trying to preserve. or maybe there's a tradition i'm unaware of?

okay, i'm aware that my post is far from perfect, grammatically, or logically. i'm not quite sure why, but i can't seem to think straight today . . . must be my hurting tushie ^^


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Sunday, December 26, 2004

my christmas

it's no secret that i have an unorthodox family. and for most of the year it's great. we celebrate pragmatic stuff like those rare occasions when we can just sit together over dinner. we all have very different beliefs and backgrounds, but we are family. and i like that. however, there are some times when i can't help but feel the desire to just like the old times, when things were much simpler. when any of us didn't have to grow up so fast, when tv was filled with entertainment and less politics, when the inhabitants of this world trusted one another, when everyone was busy working for tommorrow to search for weapons in every other persons bag or country . . .

but then again, if things are not what they are today, how else would it be? right now, everyone is thrown into confusion. most everybody has something right to say, and most nobody doesn't have a flaw in their logic. what the world lacks, in my opinion, is dialogue. everyone is too supspicious to one another, yet almost nobody has had the guts to come out and just plain talk to another person about views and opinions without hell breaking loose. people who think they've got it right voice things out in the wrong manner, and those who got the right idea on communication are eaten alive by those who think they have the right opinion. and people who seek for change and the right opinion, the people who say, "be open minded!", are the ones who follow blindly and call everyone "closed minded" until they see things their way.

as i see it, the best thing to do now is not to ask for change. it's time to be the change. if people don't start to realize this, then nothing will happen other than empty hopes and promises. everyone should stop telling one another to do things their way, everyone should tell themselves to do things their way, and see why others are doing the same. and ask if necessary.

but of course, this is my opinion. open for discussion ^_^


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Saturday, December 25, 2004

メリー　クリスマス～！

it's been a long time since i did japanese, i'm not even sure if that's correct ^^;; but anywho, may everyone have a blessed christmas! i've said it before and i'll say it again:

ph33l t3h l0v3~!


now, despite public demand, my life:

party of four i think we have a new little group, me, kaila, beldhara (belly ^^;;), and bullDriver (bully ^^;;). yeah, it's the mtq group, with the addition of mamakai :D it started out really as a little group get together between me, kaila, and beldhara to play games and stuff, but it evolved to include onishin (aka bullDriver) due to (drum roll) tantra! ^_^ personally, i like this little group. we can talk about anything and everything, and i feel as relaxed as i could be. this is probably the second group i am most comfortable with, next to my high school barkada (which also includes bully^^) (whom i also miss dearly)

tantra rocks~! okay, bad pun. anywho, i really like the game. if only nirvana can take it a little more. (nirvana is my pc, thanks for asking) i get infuriated (though i don't want to show it) when people poke fun at me and my lousy level. or even at my pc (yeah i know, shallow, but you know when you can't eat animals you've named? well, this is sorta like that :D) oh well, that's life :D

02 complex thought there's a pun there, you just have to see it. and it's no typo, in case you're wondering. though it happened that i met a ghost of the past some time ago, and well, it gave me a weird feeling. sort of like when you've been away from a place that you knew like the back of your hand, and when you return, everthing seems new again. but you know how short your little excursion will be so you really can't get yourself to enjoy the new moments. weird i know. really weird

job hunt current status : 2 tests down, 1 to go. 1 company in queue.
(Azeus) ^^'


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